Been updating at ayuyu.multiply.com as well. Can't open this site at home. No mood to type out at the moment.

AARGGGGGHHHH!!!! I'm so angry!!!! mayb because I had a late lunch that why I'm more aggigated. Got tons to think about.

Just found out some1 been readin my enteries.... HELLOOOO....

I'm worried. Very worried. I donno how can I help Hendera. Things are not looking too good for him, and I feel like my hands are tied on my back. He wanna change, goddamit! he been a good boy sor the past 2 months, and I'm proud of him. But his past is catching up with him. His past now has not been only bothering him, but his sis and me as well. Oh God Al-mighty, please protect him from any harm.

Oh dear, my bday's next week.... I'm gonna be old!!!! NO!!!! Turning 23!!!! NO!!!! Actually i'm not that bothered coz I feel like I'm still 18. hehhehee. Forever 18!!!! yeah yeah.

Went to watch 13 going 30 yesterday wif jannah. It was great!!! It was just what I needed. It gives me a good vibe n a new postive outlook in life in general. But after the talk with Henedera, it had been subsided abit.

Saw a recent picture of Halim at kairin's site... man... now i realised that it had been about 2yrs since I last saw him. The last time I saw him was at geylang market. I was wif my family, he was wif his sis. The last time I saw kairin was about begining of this year at suntec. he was wif his frens, I was wif mine. Not that we are not frens anymore, but each of us been busy with our lives, no time to gettogether and hang out.

Teri gonna change to the suntec branch again. Gonna miss hanging out with you babe.

Oklah, better stop here.

Ika's grandma passed away yesterday. My condolences and prayers are to the family. Feel for all of you...

Went to CausewayPoint wif Lydia after that. Had brunch and went window shopping. It was fun. Gal, its ok to be dating older guys...trust me.

Went to the Pasar malam with chacha, jannah, dayah, dilly n mom that nite. Bummped into Ashurah, Isma, Nisha wif her husband and baby. Nisha's baby is now like so big! She's now 8 months old,and so cute!! Suddenly I feel so old. My secondary school fren whom I was so close to then now already married wif a child, whereas I'm still like this...

The week in summary:
1) went on cruise on tuesday, had fun. It was teacher's day celebration on that day. Ate alot. Kids gave me gifts.... so sweet... Grandpa was hospitalised.

2) Went to polyclinic on wednesday, got scolding fro the doctor. Told to go back to my preventor medication. Realised I'm having fever. Got MC for 2 days, but didn't took it.

3) Went to work on thursday. Did a bit of work. Didnt' went for class. Too sick.

4) went home straight after work on friday. Saw Hamidah, followed her shopping for perfume.

Where can I turn to let this tears flow?
Where can I lend to lighten the load?
Where can I touch,to feel the love I need so?
Where can I be, just to be happy and me.

I penned these down just a few minutes ago... actually while I'm typin in my reports. Wish I could take MC as the doctor recommended. Got so much I wanna say, but i just cant say it out...

Was at a workshop for the weekend. Told her that I let her go. If she sees our friendship as just something to fill up the time she was not with her, so be it. But I'm sad, very sad.

Went out wif Hidayah on sunday. Brought her to Hereen and far East. Bought her a skirt and a tie. I bought a pink sari kurta.